this up to hormones or some type of postpartum depression, but I really think it is my change of perspective as a mother. For me motherhood has made me shed the emotional armor and feel deeply and real feelings again. In a way,I am able to be the true me again, and it is refreshing. For self protective reasons, I built up this armor over the years but as a BK's Mommy, I think subconsciously I want to teach him through my actions that it is ok to have feelings because everyone does.
Now don't take this to be that I am walking around an emotional mess, because I am not. I am just able to embrace and own intense feelings (happiness, sadness, joy, and despair). I am feeling like the Laura I used to know and for once I actually like her.
|This little guy-- has helped me be the true me again.|